GUEST POST Written By Amber Rivard
When I was a little girl, my father and my mother split up. I lived in Cambridge with my mother, and my father lived in Hamilton.
During the ages of 2-11, I rarely ever got to see my father. He always came up with excuses why he couldn’t see me, and when I did get to see him the visits weren’t memorable.
When I turned 10, my mother met a man online and they married. Shortly after, he relocated us to the States. Life was very difficult. My stepdad abused me emotionally and physically.
I remember thinking, “I’ll never have a daddy to love me.”
During my high school years and into my early 20’s I did my best to win approval from guys. I would do my best to keep men feeling sorry for me because I so desperately needed their love, so I thought.
Eventually, I would become emotionally attached. Every time that I thought I had a chance with a man, they would end up leaving me. Once, I was so strongly attached to a man, and I invested so much into him, (as he did me as well), that I thought for sure he was “the one”. However, he also walked out of my life.
I was so upset with God. I screamed at Him, I cried myself to sleep many nights, I hated life. I was so angry that I was ready to turn my back on God. Yet, even in the midst of my anger, I forced myself to go to church and keep pursuing a relationship with God.
Then one day, the Holy Spirit showed me a Scripture
“Even if my father and mother abandon me, the LORD will hold me close.”
He then gave me revelation about this Scripture. I needed to let Him become my Father. Instead of running after men to fill the emptiness that I had, God wanted to fill me with Him.
I started meditating on Scriptures about His unfailing love. I read about His desire for me, how He has good things planned for me and that He is my strength. I also discovered that He will never forsake me.
Each new Scripture drew me closer to grasping His amazing love for me.
Now when I face trials, I know I can trust Him, and talk to Him. I know that He will love me, encourage me, strengthen me, and lead me. When I feel abandoned, I know that I am not alone. He holds me close.
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2 thoughts on “GUEST POST: Abandoned, But Not Alone”
You expressed your heart with clarity and openness and God is so proud of you everyday!
Amber, that is so well written, it gives me hope to also seek God as my Father. Thank You